Revelations

2004-07-11T15:53:00.000+08:00

Err...busy ♥

Sorry for the lack of updates, I've been busy jobhunting and all that jazz...

Anyway, my whole week's been tiring and all. Remember my last update about "Wellness Works Inc."? Well, forget that, that company is just a front of another company called Herbalife!!! Sounds familiar eh? Suckers! I really hate it! Anyway, it was a blessing in disguise, I was able to find the building of Convergys in the long road of Ayala Ave, Makati. Only, I'm afraid, I must've done something wrong, that's why in the long run, I might have failed. I however passed in the initial interview and in the simulation, but in the Final Interview, I guess it's because of my practicality and because of my big mouth, that's why I failed. Not because of my english skills, (maybe).

Anyway, somebody's bothering me already, I have to go. I'll update next time, I promise!

Crossposted in Livejournal-kheekay♥

2004-07-01T16:57:00.000+08:00

Current Desktop Design ♥

I just got my desktop source from http://kitta.net and I had been her avid "fan" eversince Xenia introduced me to her site.
Kitta, also had this habit of showing off her current desktop design, which I coincidentally sometimes do. She referred some cool desktop sources like http://www.pixelgirlpresents.com/ and so on. Blah...

And now, hehe...here's my current desktop design..:D ♥'

Click the pic to enlarge...

Anyway,tata! :D

2004-06-27T20:01:00.000+08:00

You Got It... ♥

Since I got a new haircut and a few of you guys are asking me to post some pics, and I'm kind of feeling kinda giddy today...Lol :P I would like to postsome pics.

Hope you like them though...:D

Teeheee...I'm feeling quite a bit cam-whore today...:p
And besides...I'm Goddamned bored...:P

2004-06-24T23:37:00.001+08:00

Freakin' Grr... ♥

My life's shitty nowadays, I'd rather keep it to my GJ, LJ and in my blurty...baahh! It's a protected entry so you guys who have no access to my blog unfortunately have no right to read it...Sawry...:(

But I don't wanna rant here, since I don't wanna waste the "moods" of you pretty people who happen to hop on my blog. I don't wanna post senseless quizzes either..OOoops...:| Shutting up..

Anyway, gotta go, still have to update my lj and my blurty...Welcome to the life of being a blogwhore...lol...:P

2004-06-22T00:06:00.000+08:00

aI've g0t New Friggin' Haircut! ♥

I have a new haircut. :P I decided not to post pics cause my deal was if I liked the outcome and feel like showing it, why not? But unfortunately, I didn't like it. Not like I looked like something you'll totally despise when you see me, but it's like this, I told the stylist to just trim my hair, and give me bangs, cause that's what my hair looked like before it got too long, what he did was just a simple trimming, he maid just a simple trimming, no style, layered as is...considering the old style of my hair, he didn't do anything new, just the old thing, he did nothing but cut a few strands to make it look like trimmed and he cut a few strands in front, but it was too late for me to say "Hey, where's the bangs?!?" I was soo pissed off, but how can I complain, I mean he just went on he asked me, but he didn't listen, I know I explained it to him really well, but I don't know...:|

I got my resume printed already, and I'm going to find a job maybe this week...Haay...I need to build my self esteem I thought I get it locked from my computer somewhere...:|

Anyway...tootles! :D

♥ Kheex

2004-06-19T01:01:00.000+08:00

The Night The Angels Came ♥

Here's the picture of my angels...I'm showing you this pic just for fun and just for me to prolong the happiness I'm feeling right now, so don't ask me why, OK?

Ok, so this is what happened to me the whole day...my Mom talked to me about Father's Day. Haha...yeah! :P She told me not to greet my freakin' father on Father's day cause he had never been a father to us, and for it to serve a lesson to him. She told me to just to let my two brothers greet him. I was annoyed not because I am planning to greet him, which am still thinking of, but I was annoyed because she is kinda dictating certain things to me again, treating me again as if I were a kid, and what if I disobeyed her? She'll be mad as hell? Heller...:P Besides, I really don't care about my father at all, neither about the Goddamn father's day thing. I'm PRETENDING that the certain day is just an ordinary day, since I'm used to it already. Why? See this, for 3 years now, I don't know, maybe more, he's always leaving us for his family DURING OR BEFORE father's day, now was that a coincidence, or he's just trying to make himself of use during the certain day. So I guess it's just an ordinary day for me. It hurts at first, ofcourse, especially before when I was the type of person who often go to mass, [unlike now] it hurts to see family greeting each other that thing "Happy Father's Day" thingie and all I have is my Mama and when I come home, I have my Mom, waiting there, bitching out her emotions crying for the same stuff over and over again and UNTIL NOW, it's still the same topic, God! gimme a break! =P

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Anyway, back to the angels thingie, my brother's family dropped by today, they had some transactions with my sister that they had to settle. My brother just told me to go down quietly and not to tell mom that they're here or else my Mom will definitely get mad [that was when I was having a conference with Xee and Therese]. You see, she's mad at my brother and his family because my brother unfortunately did something that pissed the hell out of my mom. He asked for help in paying the electric bill, He said that if not for THEM, my parents, the bill won't go too high, and THAT pissed my mom. Now my mom is going to Angat to tell the Parochial priest in there of what my Dad and my bro did to her in which I think is very unethical, cause it gives my brother a bad reputation. Family business has nothing to do with my brother being a public servant. I just knew about it a while ago, my sister in law told me. So now I knew the reason why my mom keeps going to Angat even though she has no business at our house. She's talking to the priest about my bro. Our only fear is that, since my nieces, Trisha and Ela is studying at the school where the priest is working as a principal, he might have a bad impression on the kids, and the kids has nothing to do with my Mom and my bro's transaction, besides, it's just an arguement, my mom goes bitchy everytime my dad goes away.

I miss my angels, Trisha, Ela especially the two babies, I wish I could see them more often, communicate with them with no worries. Haay...Mom, when the FUCK will you change?!? x(

2004-06-17T22:40:00.000+08:00

Anyone Help Me? ♥

Ok, I've been trying to download blinkies, animated icons, and certain stuffs over the net, but they only result in one thing, the images are saved as bitmap, not as .jpeg or .gif...Anybody help me? I'm really pissed off with my pc...I've been trying to solve this problem eversince yesterday..

Anyway, I talked to my Mom a while ago, she's still pushing me to take the job at the post office, until she talked to my Godfather himself. She asked my godfather if he could accept me as his employee. My mother woke me up telling me to call him. I was really pissed, and so I called my godfather, my purpose was to ask him what the hell did my mom told him. His secretary and him told me to call again, they did that for about three damn times. Damn! So, when we had the chance to talk already, he told me to submit a bio data, blah, blah, and blah. Bio Data? Not a resume? I stopped him, and I told him that I wanted to find a job first in other companies if it's ok with him, I told him that I want to find a job which has a connection with my course. He agreed. He told me that the only thing his employees do there is just do their nails and make themselves beautiful, basically do nothing. He told me that government work is the job of the lazy people. There is no progress in gov't work and my career won't progress in there, I shouldn't waste my course in such profession. He told me that they had a low salary, he told me lots of things in fact, agreeing to what I was trying to tell him. I'm soo happy he agreed. I told him I'd just call him if I needed his help. Besides, I really don't like working in an environment in which I have relatives or anything which has connection in our family, I can't work that well...:P

Anyway, I'm ok...some things happened earlier which are not meant to be blabbed out, they're not worth ranting ok...:P

Kheex ♥

2004-06-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

Jobhunting Rants ♥

My life's boring...:[ I'm really desperate, I really need a job, as in now. My friends and I are going to apply at Convergys maybe next week, Cherry's still trying to fix her schedule with her bossy brother and I am still trying to get a perfect timing with my mother. She wants me to get a job at the Gov't post office, because my Godfather is working there, she feels that I can be protected in there. Personally, I really don't like there. Reasons: [1] Well, aside from the fact that the salary in there is not really that big, I'm not expecting for a big salary, as I am only a fresh graduate, why expect, why boast? but, there are rumors that the salary of their employees sometimes are delayed and even the benefits are delayed too. Forget it! I have alot more to think about! Yes, I am also after the experience and the socialization thingie, what about the expenses that I promised my MAMA that I would half-handle/handle first thing when I get a job? [2] And one more thing, I need a career which has a promotion thingie, you know, what will I do in a post office? As my friends told me, "Walang usad don!" ("You will not get promoted in there"} BESIDES even if I tried stating all of my reason to you one by one, it will all fall down to one meaning, I DON'T WANT IT!!!

Ok, rant's over...:]

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If you *do* click it, your password was sent to the owner of that website. You should change your LJ password *immediately*, and sign off, then clear any cookies out in your browser before signing back into LJ.

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PLEASE READ THIS AND POST IT INYOUR OWN JOURNAL, AND YOUR COMMUNITIES. PASS IT ON!!!

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I read that on one of the communities that I'm in in LJ, so if you have an LJ, do pass it on. You really don't wanna be hacked right? Missed you guys, all the FAB 4...*kisses*

♥ Kheex

2004-06-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

Star In A Million & Rants ♥

I just found out that my school mate Aria Llanes joined that show, Goodness. I just hope that she'll win. I mean despite the busy sked and all, if you guys watch Sing Galing before, I mean I'm talking about years ago here, ok...she won I think 15 or 16 times then she won 1st runner up in the Grand Finals. She became the Official Singer of the Campus, and I must say she really is a fabulous singer. Way better than I expected, and she manages her time pretty well. Good Luck Aria, my prayers will always be with you...

Anyway, my mom went to Batangas to dip herself in to the warm sand...Nicie nicie, eh? She went home kinda pissed off, and by the way she's talking to us, she really pissed us off, she asked us several questions then she just started shouting and yelling. I know I'm not making any sense, but I'm just RANTING...OK? Then all of a sudden, after she stopped yelling and pissed the hell out of us, she talked to us the 'ol natural way...Damn! She really know how to piss us off!

Anyway, she then told me that when we have time, she's going to make some arrangements and she's going to accompany me to get a driver's license. She told me that she'll accompany me to her friend over at the LTO. Blah, yeah I'm excited, but the car that I'm SUPPOSED to use ain't functioning no more! Damn care! Damn life! Gggrrr...My dad even promised me to have that car fully repaired and fully furnished blah blah...I really don't care if the damn car isn't new at all..What I care about is that I have a car. Damn! My brothers and sisters had their car back on their high school days, and I who have finished my schooling already don't have a car yet! Forgive the selfishness and the blabbing, as I've said, I'm only ranting, this'll be over! :(

Anyway, I guess I'm done, better finish this rant before I say something I might regret and put a ~~STRIKE~~ later. I really don't wanna do that thing...

2004-06-11T00:31:00.000+08:00

Bored... ♥

Something's wrong with every website that I tried entering. On GJ for example, I tried editing my whole friends only post about 5 goddamn times but it didn't work until the 6th time but when I tried again, nothing worked. There must've been a problem in that site. My friends also kept telling me and buzzing me, complaining that their "supposed-to-be" entries were eaten by the dumb site. Aaarrrggghhh!!

Photobucket is also malfunctioning some of the times take note! Sometimes...and I'm NOT complaining, I guess it's pretty ordinary, I should be thankful rather because there are sites like these, like GJ and PHOTOBUCKET that offer their services for FREE...

Friendster, however, SUCKS as always...They never failed being a sucker. They tried improving but they still land on the same problem....:[ Poor users, and poor maintainers as well...:[

Hangout is also not showing up the whole day, I guess Xenia's site is down at the moment,I haven't seen her online today either. By the way, I'm the moderator at Hangout, So I'm inviting you to PLEASE PLEASE JOIN our MESSAGE BOARD, so that you can express yourself with topics regarding POLITICS, SHOWBIZ, THE "S" WORD and alot more! Come join us there! =)

Now, I guess, that's the product of my boredom, I get to notice the site's disadvantages/malfunctions...Blah...:P I'm sleepy, I retire now...:)

2004-06-09T22:36:00.000+08:00

Pics ♥

Heyah! Remember the pictorial that I blogged about last April? I got the pics already!!! Yay! :D <3

And I've got some bonus or ya! Here are the pics that I decided not to post while I was soo depressed last Monday. Well, I'm still depressed you know, there's still stuffs that happened specially a while ago, the conversations with my parents and all that jazz, but I don't really wanna live my life yakking all about my mysery, so here's all the pictures and I hope you enjoy them...♥

**I will not post the Creative shots, cause they look horrible...atleast diyan kahit pano, nagmuka akong tao...LOL"

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***The pics that I was talking about, the one that we shot last Monday...

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Anyway, I have added some stuffs at the side pannel way over there «««--- hope you'll check those stuffs, up...specially the links MOST SPECIALLY the HANGOUT message board...REGISTER, PLEASE...we need more members there...:P

2004-06-08T23:15:00.000+08:00

New Layout!!! ♥

Hey guys, I need your opinion regarding this one, actually, I'm kinda searching for black layouts and I found this...

So, I really hope you could share something about this...♥

One more thing, I hope you'll excuse my post yesterday regardingmy FATHER, I was just so furious, actually, even today, I am really MAD at him of what he did to somebody so close to me...SO, I guess he just deserves what I mentioned yesterday...;]

Anyway, I gotta go...:D

2004-06-08T00:42:00.000+08:00

Clearing Things Out ♥

LET IT BE KNOWN...

That I Joyette Cruz...

am not having any form of communication with my father eversince he left

Let me Elaborate: I am no longer talking to him nor texting him EVEN BEFORE he was here, because o1 I admit, I was soo busy in my room with my own little world, and o2 He, my father, has his own business to that time, having his petty quarrels with my mom and having his own plans to escape. I tried texting him A WHILE AGO, and YES he replied, saying these words "Anak, pipilitin kong magkapera para mapadalan kita" What am I, a coinbank or something? I mean, I am not a dork, that's just here for his money, I told him that, not really the exact words, but I told him that I am not like his usual daughter/son that only talks to him because they need money. I don't need his money, I need a GODDAMN FATHER! Is that too hard to understand? Everytime he's here, he's only here for my brother, for someone, but not for me, I never experienced being caressed by a father. I wish I know how it felt being cared for. Drama! :[

And I, Joyette Cruz, is also the daugher of Mr. and Mrs. Conrado Cruz, which means I too have the right to be their daughter, and have the right to feel, the feeling of being loved and cared for. Perhaps its time for them to think of me. I've done my part decades ago. Why not do theirs? :[

I made that post here, so that incase some of my relatives/friends who "DON'T SEEM TO CARE" about my blogs, happen to hop-in here, they will see this. Ignore this post if you don't wanna ruin your day and feel so emotional...I feel so crushed and crappy, don't be..:[

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In other news, join http://belissima-x.com/hangout/ it's a Message Board. So cool. JOIN, BECAUSE I TOLD YOU SO...

2004-06-06T00:39:00.000+08:00

I'm happy to say that I'm going to have a giant online photo album here in my journal, because it's not only my Reunion Pics that you are going to see, but also the pics from our Outing...

Yeah, cool, right? So, I'm not gonna make this any longer for you guys, so on with the pictures...

Here's our main picture...kinda like a teaser...lol...

Let me introduce everyone to you [from left to right] That is Angela obviously a high school "barkada" of mine, I only had the chance to get to know her during 4th year, actually, all of them, even my bestfriend...we only had the chance to tighten the relationship duuring fourth year, although Angela is from the other section and all..Oh dear, I'm blabbing to much. On with the picture...After Angela, beside her, is Syra she's also my high school barkada, she's also my "punching bag" cause I often hit her for no reason at all...lol..And at the middle is MEEEH!!!<3 lol! yeah I know I'm really getting fat and all...:D <3 Next after me, is Lady Lyn Damn! The last time I saw this lady was when I had my 20th birthday and she wasn't that tall! Hehe...she's my close friend since 2nd year high but it never came to the point that we became best friends, since we lost contact and we sometimes don't understand each other. Beside Lady is Annalyn now, she's my bestfriend, since 4th year, lol..we've got a funny story of how our friendship began...you see, we've known each other's FACE eversince 1st year and we're both really FAT eversince then, but when we became 4th year high,damn! we were like worse enemies, in the phone and everything, but we still ended up being together, now, we're bestfriends for I think more or less 6 years!!!<3 Sweet!!! <3

Ok...enough with the drama...

Here's The rest...

Angela took this picture...I can say that I shouldn't have worn that blouse, beside the fact that I'm soo full that time, I was wearing a low-waist pants which made my stomach really bulgy, and ok,let's just admit it, I'm really getting fat, but that really makes me wonder because I'm not eating anything in here! x[

Anyway...

[a] [b]

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[a]Pic of me and Annalyn = I looked soo damn tired...X6
[b]The other one is Lady and my bestfriend...Here in this entry you will know/notice that we really are camwhores! <3

Upstairs....in my room...<3

[c] [d]
[e] [f]

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[c] We just love singing, and we're like dorks in there...:D <3
[d] I just took this pic assuming that it would be a nice shot...Damn! I was wrong! :P
[e] Angela dancing with the song "I will survive" I am the one who took this stolen snapshot, and Annalyn was the one singing...=P
[f] Aaawww...I wish Syra was still here when we took this pic, she already left! <3 Gggrr...x[

Pictures that we took before they Left

[g] [h]

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[g] Me and Babez, leaning forward, pretending that we were tall...:D <3
[h] Lady and Angela...The pretty ones! <3

Ok...I guess you can say that I really had a blast..I'm going to update about the reunion later..for now, let's end this part of the photo album HERE__________

Laguna Outing Pictures

And we'll start the other part of the photo album HERE__________

This are the pictures from Laguna, just hover your mouse on the pictures to see their descriptions...Thanks...<3

This pictures are almost the same, lol...Mommy can swim, yes, we have a funny story there, she used her support, her tungkod in the swimming pool...lol..

So, these are the pics from our outing...:D <3 Hope you enjoy seing them...

Guest Appearance

And I just thought of posting this pic, as a her SPECIAL GUEST APPEARANCE since, she has no picture in that outing...And besides, I really missed this gir...

Oh, incase you can't recognize her....She's my niece, it's Iana, wierd pic, eh? It's her pic taken from Binagbag, Angat Bulacan, last Black Saturday, you know, the day when we had our swimming over the river...:D Hehe...I just missed her so I thought og posting her pic...<3

Okei, I think that's it, the update about the reunion, I don't know, maybe I'll update about it later...For now, I'm tired, I'm chatting with my fellow gj whores....<3 hehe..>:D ^_^

2004-06-04T20:00:00.000+08:00

Reunion To Be Continued! Weee! ♥

Remember the reunion that I was blabbing about before the outing? Oh well! We're going to have it tomorrow! Actually we just decided to hold the "get together" tomorrow, even though it's kinda rush, since we've already planned for it for a long time, so I guess it's really no big deal. I promise to post the pictures tomorrow since I borrowed my sister's digicam...Weee!

And by the way! My sister just bought her a new unit! Damn! And you know what that is? It's a 6230! Damn! Don't you know how I liked that phone! Oh dear, no biggie actually, since I really have no interests of changing my cellular and my priorities are not material things...:D ♥ Good girl...:D

Anyway, watch out for the pics and the update tomorrow..:D Tata! ♥

2004-06-02T22:31:00.000+08:00

Not In The Mood ♥

I'm really not in the mood today...I really feel like crying..Acutally I've been crying all day, because me and my Mama had an argument and honestly, it hasn't been resolved yet. One more thing is that my father, left us again. That prat! Gggrr...Well, it's really an old story for us, but it hurts just the same everytime he's doing it, so I think that gives me a reason to cry.

Sorry for the visitors whom I haven't listed on my links, I promise to update my template. I will remove that "music" and that "now playing" column thingie since the host for the background music is no longer available...Bah...:(

Anyway, gotta go, I promise to update tomorrow...~_^

2004-06-01T00:48:00.000+08:00

The Reunion, The Outing, All Of It... ♥

I am really sorry for not updating I know I have failed all of you, so I am really sorry, I also missed updating my LJ and my gj, so I guess it's just fair.

Anyway, since I blabbed already about the reunion, let me tell you something, it was postponed because my brother, together with my "loving" parents planned an outing, to Laguna...so we decided to postponed the reunion for the sake of the outing and since we know that we're not really complete, I mean 2 of our high school chums won't be able to make it, that made us decide not to pursue the said reunion. But still, it would have been a blast if it was continued.

So, let me tell you what happened to me for the past let me see...4 days...

Thursday was really a kind of a hottie day for me, cause I was soo pissed off since my parents and my brother/sister aren't telling me whether the outing will still be pursued or something, since we still have a reunion to continue. Then my parents called me and told me that we're going to pursue the outing so we, my bestfriend and me decided to cancel the reunion and schedule it next week.

Night time, I really had a nice time, since all we did in the place was to sing, swim and eat. We rented a private pool which is a lot cheaper than Monte Vista. Really cool place.

Friday I really got myself wet from 10am to 10pm, ofcourse with breaks. But still, I really got tired. I can't stop thinking and hugging Iana, my niece, she's my angel.

Saturday Gawd! The customers, I mean the people who's next to rent the place are already there even before we finish packing our things and this is before 10am. We went to Tagaytay Pink Sisters and we bought Lunch to Bulalo House and we ate at those Picnic Grooves. Really nice experience for me, then I found out that Trisha and Ela will sleep at Tita Gladdie's house, but before they went to sleep, Jem called them to join the Dance Contest, they won the First Price! Really cool! They won 600 pesos, and Trisha's parents decided to let the kids stay at home rather than Tita Gladdie's cause it's really late and it would be kinda rude to bother them.

Sunday Town Fiesta here in Manila, though I didn't have soo much fun cause I wasn't feeling that well, I had a zip of San Mig light but my stomach wont allow it. Gggrr! I wanted some tequilla but my eyes were really blurry and I really felt drunk! Gggrr...Azif!

Monday I was supposed to go to School today to get my transcript, cause its way beyond schedule, but since I woke up really late today I decided to just get it on Wednesday. Bah...My day's boring today, don't ask! :(

2004-05-26T01:43:00.000+08:00

Upcoming Reunion ♥

Sorry for the late update, I became busy with other stuffs and I don't wanna keep myself occupied with blogging in all since I wanna get busy with other things besides blogging and internet.

Weee! We're going to have our high school reunion on Thursday! Me, and my friends are going to have our reunion which will be held here in my house on thursday, I'm soo happy! And one more thing, my sister agreed in lending me her digicam! I'm soo happy!

Anyway, we went to Tutuban today to pay our electric bills. Incase you're suspecting if I went on shopping AGAIN today, well I didn't...lol, I'm trying HARD to budget my money so that when I get a job it won't be too hard for me to budget my salary. I'm trying hard to build enough confidence cause I really am nervous. I need all the strength/support I can get from friends and family [if ever].

In other news, I almost thought that my computer had a virus, good thing I kinda got a solution for it...whew! At least, things got a little bit better, since I really don't have money to hire a darn technician as of the moment. LOL.

Anyway, I'm going to clean my mini-house tomorrow for the mini-party that will be held on thursday. I'm soo excited! :D
I promise to post pictures as soon as the party's over, ayt?

Tata!

♥ Yette..^__^

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I've seen the trailer and the making of Harry Potter PoA a while ago, and I must say, DANIEL RADCLIFFE is really soo damn hot!!!!♥♥♥

I'm going to change the music in this layout as soon as possible. Tomorrow maybe, 1st reason is that, it's not playing and 2nd is that, I'm kinda sick of it already...:D

2004-05-22T11:57:00.000+08:00

Any Idea What This Means? :/ ♥

I'm completely fucked up nowadays not only because I'm super bored and everything but aside from that, I'm really bugged by this dream that I just had last-last night. YES, it was a good dream, but oh well, it really bugged me because I really don't know what's the meaning of that damn dream! Gggrrr....x(

Anyway, the dream that I'm blabbing about however is really GOOD....however, it got me completely bothered cause it really felt good and I'm NOT asking for that situation to come. Well, not actually, it's just that, I know it will come sooner or later, but I'm not really asking for it cause I know that the fact that I'm asking for it, it will just not happen soon. get me?

OK, the dream goes like this...I really don't know if I'm sitting in HIS lap, or if we're just sitting together, but I'm sure that the scenario started like that...HE gave me cds as a GIFT, HE was COURTING me. And I saw myself saying "SAGUTIN KO NA KAYA SIYA? Nah...it's too early, he's only couring me for 2 days"...something like that see? I mean, I don't have a bf, nor a suitor, I've been so attached with my family, I've never entertained that thought so how can I ask for that thing...blah...

My friends kept telling me that maybe it's a sign...Tell me, please... :(

2004-05-21T14:00:00.000+08:00

Sorry ♥

Sorry, I've been tweaking the layouts of my Gj, Blurty and my Lj, and I became busy with other stuffs, so I kinda forgot that I got another blog. LOL, sorry...That's the downside of being a blogwhore and being unemployed...LOL

Anyway, I'm going to update later...

You're free to add me at my GJ, LJ and my blurty if you want too..

2004-05-17T01:48:00.000+08:00

Too Emo ♥

I've been being too emotional these past few days...

Reasons

I'm having this series of dreams every night pertaining to our former house and it bothers me cause I thought I've already moved on.

Yesterday, we accidentally passed by the street where we used to live before, we saw our former house, and it's being rebuilt. It's pretty, way prettier than our old house and probably the prettiest house in that street. MAIN THOUGHT: The street brings back old memories

It's the city's town fiesta today, it brings back memories and tears.

Too emotional, I know...but can you blame someone like me who has undergone several trials? Tell me...

On a lighter note, I've build another blog, or should I say online journal...you can view it by clicking here and it's a semi-friends only journal...hehe..:D So, incase you got a uj, go on and add me...

2004-05-16T02:24:00.000+08:00

Crazy Little Shopaholic! ♥

Ok, so I did some shopping again in Tutuban, so sue me or blab it off on my Mom for all I care! hehe...Well, it didn't really cost me a fortune and FYI it's not her money, it's my own money, my aunt gave it to me as my graduation gift lol. It's tradition in our family to give cash as gifts...I get used to it..~_^

Anyway, I bought this really cute white "jelly" bag, I really don't know what it's called but I prefer to call it a kind of transparent bag since that's what it looked to me and I've loved one of those ever since I was in high school. Don't worry, I'll take a picture of it once I get to borrow my sister's digicam or once I get to buy my own...lol...[in your dreams!]

Anyway, I also bought some dvds to lighten up my boring days.

I think that's all for now...

Oh, and if you want to read/know what happened to me for the past 10 days you know, the days that I was gone for Bulacan, you can go to my LJ but the entry is Friends Only so, sorry for those of you who wont be able to view it...hehe..[it's also in my gj...]

If you want, you can add me up...my lj username is kheekay15. ~_^

Tata...
♥ Yette

2004-05-14T22:51:00.000+08:00

Back...Helo! ♥

Hey guys! I'm back! I'm sooo happy! Hehe...:D

If you guys can recall, I left the day before my Graduation, so before I proceed to my blogging and all that jazz, I would like to show you the pictures...

I borrowed my sister's digicam and I took alot of pictures from the big day itself to the town fiesta...so, here they are..

The Graduation Day

~I look horrible in this pics so, just bear with it, ok?!?

From the preparation...

***I won't show the whole body pic cause first of all, I hate the outcome of it so hehe..and second, I just don't want to, ok?! so...ggrrr...>:D

To the Araneta Colliseum...

» Outside

First Time Seing My Mom, eh? And now, both of 'em...:D

**All of my friends were really damn late, so when Janice arrived, I took the advantage of taking our picture...

Luv yah...

» Inside...

***I took all the pictures of my friends, and those people that my parents told me to capture, so..here goes..

Anna Lyn [Babez] and her parents...

Janice...solo...

» And now, the pictures that my parents kept bugging me to take....

I hate this pic..

This is the whole executive blah blah of AMA...:D Heh..who cares anyway?

After the Graduation...

» To the Restaurant...

Well, it's my parents obviously...my mom's not smiling...she never smile in any of her pictures anyway... and besides, she was soo pissed off that day..:(

» Until at home, in Bulacan...

My angels...

» Graduation song...

IN MY LIFE

There are places I remember,
all my life, though some have changed
some forever, not for better,
some have gone, and some remain,
all those places have their moments,
with lovers and friends, I still can recall,
some are dead and some are living,
In my life, I've loved them all...

But of all these friends and lovers,
there is no one, that compares with you,
and these memories lose their meaning,
when I think of love, as something new
though I know I'll never lose affection,
for people and things, that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them,
In my lfe, I love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection,
for people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them,
In my life, I'll love you more

IN MY LIFE, I'LL LOVE YOU MORE...

Of course, the picture taking really doesn't stop there...there's still our town fiesta, remember? O___o

Angat Town Fiesta

» Angels...

» Bestshot...

Hayup na Trishang toh...LOL...:D

Weeehhh....Oh, my Mamaaahhh! & Jemjem...hehe..:D

» Digicam whoring...

Ahihi..:D

...More to come, so just stay right there...hehe...:D
Well, no...not exactly...I still have pics in my cell..

2004-05-02T11:06:00.000+08:00

Be Gone For A While♥

Sorry Guys, Cause after all the preparation and all for my graduation, [tomorrow is my Graduation! Weeee!!! =)] after this, I have to pack all my stuff, since I've got no time to prepare it tomorrow...after my Graduation, we'll be going to our province and probably stay there until after elections...So Sorry...:(

So, uhhmmm....maybe I'd still update or maybe no...so see ya guys and I'll miss ya! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHENG!!!!

2004-04-30T16:30:00.000+08:00

Baccalaureate Mass & The Hooding Ceremony :D ♥

This is only just a few..I'm sorry, I have no camera, but don't worry, once I get the other pictures that my friend took, I'm also going to post it here...

The Baccalaureate Mass

» Ok, we really didn't take pictures in the actual mass, these are pictures in the room where the B.A. students have to meet in order to prepare for the Mass Proper...

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1] This is Babez and Moi, we already wore the toga...
2] Janice, my thesis partner and Babez...sorry, I don't know what's up with my cellphone nowadays, sometimes it gets so blurry! Bah!
3] And this is the three of us...babez took the picture and Janice' face was...broken in to half? LOL...
4] Oh! this is Anne and moi! Weee! I missed this gurl! That girl isn't blogging anymore! LOL! :D
5] That's the solo pic of Anne, well, well, well...photogenic as always...LOL...:D

The Hooding Ceremony

» This is after The Baccalaureate Mass, Gosh! Did you imagine how hot it is in our Gymn! Gheeze! Well, The Awarding Ceremony proceeds after the Hooding Ceremony, I feel really bad cause my parents weren't there to place the hood on me..[I'll rant later...:-P]

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1] Well, this is me, when my mama already placed the hood on me..
2] This is me and Anna Lyn, we look awful, just plain awful, we took this shot just as in super quick cause there was a Thanksgiving Prayer and lighting of candle achuchuchu going on...LOL =P

» Too bad, I didn't took a picture of Che which is our Cum Laude Congratulations Che! Nice seing you in school a while ago! ^__^

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Anyway, the dean told us that Pres. Macapagal Arroyo will be the Guest Speaker of the said event and Kyla will sing our Ama Hymn and Paolo Santos will be there to sing certain songs! Bah! Concert! LOL! :D

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2004-04-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

Sorry...:( ♥

Sorry If I wasn't able to update for a couple of days, I've been so busy with Graduation Preparation and Stuffs, But I promise, I'll update here tomorrow...:D Muwaaahhggzz! (^3^)/~

Sorry!!! :(

2004-04-27T00:29:00.000+08:00

Pictures! You! ♥

Actually, I'm expected to rant in here since I said all the bad things that I experienced with my ever dearest family...but since that is so personal, I'd rather not talk...

Anyway, here are the pictures that we took a while ago, since we already got our gowns and we decided to take funny pics of ourselves. I didn't post this pics in there cause all I did there was rant...I'm sorry you guys..

Anyway, today was just an ordinary day for me...first your happy then the next you get hurt...It's always the routine of a common blabber girl like me..

I bought two pairs of earings a while ago as we went to SM to pay the bills of my MOM..Anyway, speaking of my Mom...I'd rather not talk...I don't want to start a rant anyway..

It's much too personal and I don't wanna cry all over again...:(

Anyway, I'm going around the bush,I know, here are the pics y'all...

Me and Bhabez, pretending...just pretending!!!! We love making fun of ourselves anyway!!!

That's me again with Bhabez, she wasn't smiling really there..we look awful!

That's MOI! Isn't it obvious that I'm super tired and all my batteries are super low???

Anyway, the feeling is indeed indescribable when you get to see and wear the toga even for just a practice...It's overwhelming, touching, you feel accomplished...such things like that...Oh well..hehe...Tata! ♥

2004-04-25T20:32:00.000+08:00

Cam Whore!!♥

I'm being a cam whore nowadays, I don't know..I took a dozen of shots on myself using my webcam and I posted it in my GJ...Yeah, take a look, sorry it's under Friends Only..Wehehe! XD

Anyway, I actually wanna post some here but I'm afraid it's being overpopulated with my pics and I don't wanna drive away new visitors, lol...My day's been super boring, I missed Sunday Mass cause my Mama's not feeling well. So am I.

Tomorrow, we're going to SM to pay the phone bills of my mom, then afterwards, maybe we'll take a stroll to look at the botiques for my Graduation Attire, then afterwards, I'm going to attend the General Assembly...Damn assembly! Boredom! x(

Then on Tuesday, maybe, we're going to Tutuban if I'm lucky enough to be bored on the latest styles that the botiqes in there...in short, if I didn't like all the gowns and their prices,I might end up buying the dress I saw in Tutuban....I saw it yesterday, which was really cheap and gorgeous, besides, I'm not up to Signatures and stuffs...~_^

Anyway, I'm kinda sore now, and I really wanna rest and I might be online again later...Ciao! ^_^

2004-04-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

Happy!! ♥

I woke up so early cause it's so damn hot, I thought it was already 10 am, then my mama told me that my parents were leaving for Angat. she told me that they're going to be there for the rest of the summer and they wanted us to pay all the bills..

I hurried to their room, andthen they were packing all their stuffs, a few hours after, they left. And guess what! They left me with all the money that I need for graduation! I'M SOO HAPPY! They left me 1,500 bucks for the graduation dress and my sister said that it's kind of little, but for me, it's ok...There's Tutuban you know! Besides, she's the one who suggested me all the places where I can find cheap long gowns and Tutuban..

Anyway, my mom left us 10,000 bucks for the bill and the rest is for the graduation expenses and for my allowance...It's fine with me...Better than that than nothing, right?!?

Anyway, a few minutes after they left,my sister called me to check on their new laptop, actually it's not really new...it's a second hand laptop from one of their buyers who wants to trade with them for a brand new 7650..The laptop is actually outmodelled and it's only Pentium 1 something...but it's only for the kids, so it'll do..

Speaking of Tutuban, we went to Tutuban this afternoon to pay our Electric Bills, luckily, we were able to pay it off right away cause there were no lines or anything at Meralco. then afterwards, we went to the Center Mall to buy dvds, we bought Peter Pan, Kill Bill Vol.2, and some cartoons. All paid by my Mama. I only paid the Kill Bill dvd, and sadly, I wasn't satisfied, not because it wasn't a good movie, infact, it was a good movie...just like the first one, but I'm afraid, because of us, being excited, our copy wasn't that clear, we can't even see some subtitles when the Bride is speaking some other dialects. But to tell you, I love the movie! Bill's DEAD!!! Oh well, I don't know if there will be another volume and I don't know if Bill will come back from the dead but from what The Bride did to him...hehe!! >:)

Anywayz, I also bought 2 cutie little earings, here's a pic of me, wearing those...

They're only P20 each and I can't help it, I have a collection of earings and earings are my favorite...hehe...I have 2 pearcings in my ear and I had another one before at the legament, [left ear] but I was so pissed off, I removed it, the damn hole closed right away..hehe..:D Actually, it was Anne and me who had the same piercing...hehe! :D

Anyway, I think that's it...Peter Pan is so cute!!! XD ♥

2004-04-23T15:18:00.000+08:00

A bad F*ckin' Day!!! GgggrrrRRR!!!♥

I don't care if anyone will never understand this but I wanna speak tagalog and I don't care if you don't understand what I feel,
I just wanna get it off my chest!

F*ck! Nanay ko pinagtritripan nanaman ako, I was talking to a GJ friend of mine, Marj, when she told our helper Nene na ipababa sakin yung phone cause she needs the phone, I just told Marj that I really have to go, and I didn’t allowed her to talk back, I really have to cut the line and let my mother use the phone cause you don't know my mom once she needs something kelangan makuha na niya yun right away or else you’ll regret being such a stubborn ass! But I can't disconnect the line, it took me 5 secs or so to disconnect I was really panicking cause my Mom might get here in my room and spank me or anything which might be possible…My life is pathetic I know…

A few minutes after, it's lunch time, they cooked biya, you know, the the little fishes...bah! basta yun na! they cooked that thing earlier di pa ako gising...it’s my favorite...I was expecting to eat it for lunch, and ofcourse, my Mom gave a bunch of biya to my brother's fam to Angat, cause she was trying to reconcile with them you know...

Anyway, when my Mama entered the room, bringing the plates and the utensils and all, cause you see, we eat here...she told me that Mommy told Nene na wag daw namin gagalawin yung biya...WTF! It's not because of the biya kaya ako nagagalit! Duh! Hindi ako ganun kababaw! F*ck! I’m not a bitch to be mad of something that is so very nonsense, it's just that it’s getting overboard...sobrang damot na niya...

Why did I say so? It’s because of the following...

- She refuses to pay for my graduation fees, and she wants me to go to my dad and bring all the list of expenses to my dad, Bakit! AMP! Tatay ko, iniwan niya sa Angat, walang kapera-pera walang damit! AMP! AMP! AMP!

- She doesn't want to pay our Electric bills, water bills, pinapasa niya kay Mama o kaya kay Daddy! AMP! Wala ngang pera yun!

- She sometimes madamot sa food...Like sa biya kanina...

- Pag sakin ayaw niya maglabas ng pera pero pag sa mga kapatid ko napakaluwag niya,

What the hell's wrong with me? What did I do wrong? Wala akong maling ginawa sa kaniya, hindi ko siya iniwan kahit minsan…kahit na pinagtatabuyan niya ako, despite the things that she's done to me, despite the fact that no matter what I do, I'm still invisible…I don’t know what's wrong with me...

Well, if she's so mad at me, why didn’t she just do something na makakaluwag sa damdamin niya for good, para naman EVERYBODY HAPPY, diva?

I just hate it...sorry...I know you know what I’m thinking, there's so many things that’s been happening in my life that’s because of her...I just hope it’ll be settled soon...:( cause I still want to graduate, with them attending, and I still want them to see me...Graduating as their first and last kid ever graduating college... :)

2004-04-22T18:12:00.000+08:00

The Downside Of Being A HomeBuddy...♥

Ok, my background music isn't playing, I don't know what's wrong, there must've been something wrong with the server...but you should listen to it...it's really great...:D

Today, me, and my bestfriend Anna, went on for some details for our group outing on May 20. Yay! I'm really excited, altough it's only on Laguna and it's not a big deal for some who goes in and out of town very often, but hey, as I've said, I'm a homebuddy, and so as my friends, so this is really an exciting event for us...:D

Anywayz, I wanna show you how my GJ looks like...so, here's a snapshot, once you click it, it'll open another window and will take you to my FRIENDS ONLY journal...;)

What I write in that is just quite the same but, I had that journal eversince december so, it's much closer to my heart and really some of those stuffs in there are really personal...:D

Thanks...~_^

2004-04-21T21:25:00.000+08:00

♥ Pictures, Pictures! ♥

I was gone for about three days not posting to ya guys what happened...But since I updated yesterday, I told ya that I had a pictorial, Oh wait! I had that mentioned last Friday, I think...But I didn't post on Saturday, my friends had their Graduation pictorial last Saturday so I had the chance to take their pics...
^_^

So, here goes..

♥ Friday ♥

»Oh yeah! This was my pictorial! My friends weren't able to have their pictorial that day so if you can notice, I was the only one who has make up...=P

Say cheeze :-P
I was trying to make fun of myself in there so laugh! I said laugh! XP

Oh, guess what, Kate is the most timid, shy, proper, whatever in our kada so, even when it comes to picture taking, she drives the photographer [that means anyone of us] away! :)

I had my Mama took that pic..Wrong angle I know.. ;P

♥ Saturday ♥

»Just a couple but it'll do...we're not really in the mood to take pictures that time cause we're soo damn tired, but since all of them were in make-ups, OH well, why not...:D

It's my Babez & Kate...Cute and really gorgeous in make up, aren't they?!? :D

Oh, it's Luzbhelle, it's our friend, well, we're really not close, but oh well...:D

2004-04-21T03:01:00.000+08:00

Another Layout!♥

I changed my layout, I messed up with the former...I'm completely busted! Good thing I was able to find a new fabulous layout...Gheeze! I'm really furious!
:(

2004-04-20T23:38:00.000+08:00

My Computer Had A Virus! ♥

Sorry Guys! My Computer had a virus that's why I wasn't able to update my blog. Good thing I was able to borrow a program that would repair such problem, and here I am! I'm back! Ok...So, here goes...

Since when was I exiled from my pc anyway? Hhhhmmm...Oh yeah...I stopped posting last Saturday right? So, let's start from there...

Saturday♥
» Ok, I weren't supposed to attend that damn seminar but since my Mama forced me, OK, but only until 1:00pm, then I'm out! And, besides, this is for the sake of that damn clearance I was ranting about eversince Friday! Anyway, I arrived at the AVR and I was really damn late, the AVR was almost full good thing my friends reserved one seat for me near them. I arrived shocked cause they have their make ups already, and I'm really not used to seing my friends having their make-ups, then they told me that they already had their pictorial. Anyway, the seminar was really a big help for me, it tackled important things about how to handle an interview, such things, that I will really need in the future...:D

Anyways, the seminar was only half day so I was able to eat and go home early afterwards..:D

Then There's This SUNDAY♥
Oh, Sunday is such a boring day for me...I really can't recall what happened...Anyone who I happen to have interaction within that day, please let me know...lol...No, but honestly, I really did nothing but play mp3s in my pc and watch dvd probably. I just let the day pass, even though my mom's moaning again...Hooh boy! X(

Hectic Monday!
Oh yes! This is the day that I almost killed my self in following up all the things I needed to get all my documents fixed for my clearance so I can get my transcript. I'm so damn tired! Ghheeeze! Until now, you can't even imagin how damn achy these legs are...XP Atleast I was able to fix my clearance and I'm about to get my transcript this coming May 28! Yay! ^_______^

Tuesday
At last! My computer's already repaired! :D Thank God! Anywayz, I went to SM today to get the installer/patch that would repair my pc from the Worm Virus that infected my pc...We had a long stressful day. I even arued with my Mama. My mom had an "emotional" day today...LOL

She and my sister had a little quarrel about a petty little thing...LOL, nothing to worry about really.

I'm really petrified by MOm's cry. She drives me away from her [literally] everytime she cries. I hope she'll change. I mean, I have my own problems too...Not to mention money, which is always a big deal for everybody, but HEy! It's not really a big deal for her after all, she just thinks that way cause she thinks that she has no money even if she holds all the money that our family have. [that's really private...OOOPS....O.o]

You guys mind your own business and shut up about it, then we'll be good friends, ayt? ^___^ muuwwaaahhggzz! :-* ~_^

2004-04-16T19:59:00.000+08:00

Pictorial, Seminar, Tired...Zzzz.....♥

Early this morning, I woke up at about 6am, and I saw my Mama still sleeping, so I woke her up, she told me that my brother called her and that all of our helpers there were gone, so he wanted to talk to Nene, which was the sister of our houseboy in Angat, that if incase his brother wanted to bring her home, (that is in Roxas, Visaya) my brother told her to disagree and tell her brother (Fernando) that they have already an agreement that she will stay until elections, then after that, she'll leave us, for a quick vacation, then be back again. ~~(Or else I'll hunt her down! :D)~~

I was about to go to school, cause I have a scheduled pictorial (Graduation Pictures) with my friends, but at 10:30am, the helpers arrived at our house here, I am separated from my Mom, in terms of houses, you know, she has her own house, and I have my own, but it's only divided by walls, so it's really no biggie. They rang OUR (our means, it's on my house) doorbell at about 10am, so we were kind shocked cause we weren't open yet, (we're selling prepaids, don't ya know? =P) and we don't really expect it. When my mama opened our door, it was our helpers! If I didn't come downstairs, I wouldn't be able to know it right away, cause I noticed that she's taking too much time downstairs, so I came down, and Hell! Fernando along with Florencio, Nene's brothers were there! Gheeze! My dad called my mama and told her to let Florencio & Belen, which is my brother's maid to stay in here, for either my dad or the driver will fetch them. I was so stupid to wait for them cause I tried to talk to my friends and ask them to postpone the scheduled pictorial. My friends agreed.

But when I came back downstairs, the driver, already fetched Florencio & Belen. I was so pissed off cause I expected to see my Dad and I expected for him to patch things up with my Mom How could I be so stupid?!? So, I decided to tell my friends to just continue the said plan...

We arrived school at about 12:30pm, just in time for the said pictorial, when I arrived there, they told me that we have to attend the seminar cause if not, the OSA will not sign our clearance. That is indeed very unlikely, and very rude! GgGGgggrrRRr!!!! X[

So, we decided to drop by the AVR, since OSA is not yet open and they are not yet accepting customers...But when we arrived! F*ck! We can no longer get out! Time flew, we're there for about an hour, my system is really overacting because of the heat and the crowd, I decided to come down stairs and talk to my Mama, and ask for medicine, to prevent seizure. Unfortunately, my mama didn't allow me to take such medicine cause it's too risky because of the side effects, and all. (I hate it's side effects, I tend to tremble during night time, and the medicine is indeed very addictive), so my mama just didn't allow me to go back upstairs, instead, she decided to just let me have my pictorial and just go home.

When we arrived OSA, Sir Manaois, the one who was administrating the seminar was there, I was even chatting with him at the AVR and asking his permission about leaving the seminar early, but he said no, he said, that the seminar will be finished early. So I just agreed. I saw him and I let him talked to my Mama, pathetic I know, cause I really can't talk that time, I'm really speechles, and really nervous cause I know we're not really in good terms. So, my mom told him a bit about my problem, and why she took me off the seminar, he said yes, although he's quite hesitant and I know he's really furious about it. I really don't know what's inside his head. No matter, he has to sign my clearance!!!

Anyway, I had my make-up session for about 30 minutes! All the other students were finished and I was the only one left. the pictures was good.

Anyway, I'm really depressed right now, my mama and I had an arguement earlier, and it's about money. I started it, it ended right away, but I really feel so depressed, I don't know what to do. It's about my SD, and about our financial problems, I really feel so helpless...but it'll be over...I know...:(

When I arrived home, at about 6:00pm, my mom asked me if I have a dress to wear at my graduation, I told her I don't have any, did you know what she told me..."Bahala kang manghingi sa ama mo!" Isn't that a reason to be depressed? I mean, my dad ain't got money in the first place, when we left Bulacan, she got everything that they have. The money, their clothes, my dad doesn't have any clothes in there. I really feel so depressed...

Another thing, earlier at school, I really don't know what happened, my cellphone just landed on the rough cement. I was texting my bestfriend and suddenly it's as if, it jumped off my hands, I don't know why. You know what, it's the first time that I ever felt contented/happy at my cellphone, and this is the second/third time that it slipped off my hands without my knowledge, I really don't know, I'm completely aware that I'm holding it, but suddenly, it's as if it jumps off my hands and lands in a hard surface. I'm completely devastated. My cellphone is physically deformed, yes, it can still function, thankfully, GASGAS? no. UKA? yes..Sad, but true...

What's happening to me today? :(

2004-04-15T17:37:00.000+08:00

First Blogging Day @ Blogspot! ♥

Oh, Gosh! Thank God! I finally made a layout that finally "fit" to my liking! Creating layouts in blogspot, isn't that easy, unlike in GJ, Gosh! Now, I can really FINALLY clean my room! Lolz, if you can see my room, it's really, TOTALLY f*ckin' messed up and I really don't mind it, I've lived my room that way before, it doesn't matter to me if I do it again...LOL....:D

I really liked my blog in here, it's from my dugo at pawis! LOL!

Anywayz, I think that's it...Till tomorrow Guys! :D